The Urantia Book-- Part IV. The Life And Teachings
PAPER 191: Section 1.
The Appearance To Peter
It was near half past eight o'clock this Sunday evening when Jesus appeared
to Simon Peter in the garden of the Mark home. This was his eighth morontia
manifestation. Peter had lived under a heavy burden of doubt and guilt ever
since his denial of the Master. All day Saturday and this Sunday he had fought
the fear that, perhaps, he was no longer an apostle. He had shuddered at the
fate of Judas and even thought that he, too, had betrayed his Master. All this
afternoon he thought that it might be his presence with the apostles that prevented
Jesus' appearing to them, provided, of course, he had really risen from the
dead. And it was to Peter, in such a frame of mind and in such a state of soul,
that Jesus appeared as the dejected apostle strolled among the flowers and shrubs.
When Peter thought of the loving look of the Master as he passed by on Annas's
porch, and as he turned over in his mind that wonderful message brought him
early that morning by the women who came from the empty tomb, "Go tell my apostles
-- and Peter" -- as he contemplated these tokens of mercy, his faith began to
surmount his doubts, and he stood still,
clenching his fists, while he spoke
aloud: "I believe he has risen from the dead; I will go and tell my brethren."
And as he said this, there suddenly appeared in front of him the form of a man,
who spoke to him in familiar tones, saying: "Peter, the enemy desired to have
you, but I would not give you up. I knew it was not from the heart that you
disowned me; therefore I forgave you even before you asked; but now must you
cease to think about yourself and the troubles of the hour while you prepare
to carry the good news of the gospel to those who sit in darkness. No longer
should you be concerned with what you may obtain from the kingdom but rather
be exercised about what you can give to those who live in dire spiritual poverty.
Gird yourself, Simon, for the battle of a new day, the struggle with spiritual
darkness and the evil doubtings of the natural minds of men."
Peter and the morontia Jesus walked through the garden and talked of things
past, present, and future for almost five minutes. Then the Master vanished
from his gaze, saying, "Farewell, Peter, until I see you with your brethren."
For a moment, Peter was overcome by the realization that he had talked with
the risen Master, and that he could be sure he was still an ambassador of the
kingdom. He had just heard the glorified Master exhort him to go on preaching
the gospel. And with all this welling up within his heart, he rushed to the
upper chamber and into the presence of his fellow apostles, exclaiming in breathless
excitement: "I have seen the Master; he was in the garden. I talked with him,
and he has forgiven me."
Peter's declaration that he had seen Jesus in the garden made a profound impression
upon his fellow apostles, and they were about ready to surrender their doubts
when Andrew got up and warned them not to be too much influenced by his brother's
report. Andrew intimated that Peter had seen things which were not real before.
Although Andrew did not directly allude to the vision of the night on the Sea
of Galilee wherein Peter claimed to have seen the Master coming to them walking
on the water, he said enough to betray to all present that he had this incident
in mind. Simon Peter was very much hurt by his brother's insinuations and immediately
crestfallen silence. The twins felt very sorry for Peter, and they
both went over to express their sympathy and to say that they believed him and
reassert that their own mother had also seen the Master.